half way

The semester is already almost half way over! And I just started a new class on Monday. It’s an accelerated Microbiology class that is 100% online. My A&P class is also totally online. I love doing my classes this way, though it makes for a very busy schedule as I have to lay everything out so that I can complete assignments and exams on time. Both classes are covering the same thing right now so studying is actually easier and more effective because I am learning it twice in two different formats. After these classes end in December, I will be applying for nursing school! Truly cannot believe this day is nearing. Wow!

In other news, work is going great. I feel like almost every day I can learn something new. I experienced my first postpartum hemorrhage about a month ago. As far as PPH goes, it was a rather atypical situation and I’m glad I was able to experience one that would not normally present the way that it did. The amazing part was that, though it was scary, I did everything I was supposed to. I work with such a great team of nurses that we all flowed together to get control of the situation and treat the patient. It was amazing to watch and experience. The adrenaline rush was overwhelming. And the best part? It didn’t scare me away from this profession! In fact, it only made me want it more. I bonded with my patient as we helped her out of a scary situation and it only made me want midwifery even more.

Have a great weekend! I am still taking submissions for birth stories. None on the board right now so send them along!




Anyone else hate this class as much as I do? I seriously wish I had the knowledge to just test out but it’s been 8 years. Damn. I am in a classroom which is great. I need that to get through a class like this, despite my love for online education. Anyway, I cannot get past all this molecular formula and pH crap. So I’m complaining here.

What are your study tips for a class like this? I think I am going to tackle every single tip I have ever learned. I made flashcards and I have both the professor notes, my notes, and the power points. Then I’m going to rewrite what I have in the flashcards on lined paper, as that is a decent learning tool for me, but damn that is a lot of writing! And am I just wasting time doing all that work? I seriously have no idea how to tackle studying for this class. My grades have already been all over the place.

I’m a CNA!!

Whelp, friends, I completed everything I needed to do to become a certified nurse aide! 30 hours of online work, 40 hours of classroom work and 24 hours of clinicals in a nursing home. On November 26th I will take the state exam and *hopefully* be certified in the state of Colorado as a CNA! It’s all very exciting. This is really the first step in my nursing career and wow…here we are! Small leap in the right direction.

The last 10 weeks were an absolute whirlwind. I felt like I was barely home. Mondays I had a 4 hour lab after working  hours and was away from my home and family for a grand total of 15 hours!! I was not only exhausted, but sad that I was barely seeing my babies. It was hard, but well worth it. They were able to have some valuable time with daddy while I worked hard to further my career. Family time, I know, will always be something I will sacrifice as I go through school and especially once I am a practicing midwife. By the time that happens, though, the kids will be older and in school. It won’t (shouldn’t) be as hard.

My weekend of clinicals was crazy. I cannot believe how hard CNAs work!! My hat is off to you. Rolling patients, lifting, changing, feeding, cleaning caths…wow. HARD HARD work. I am glad I have those skills now, but I am certainly not cut out for geriatric care.

So what now?! Well, I am still working at the hospital in patient admitting. I applied for a position with the women and family team as a CNA and I know everyone up there so I really hope that I get it! I have not seen a denial email yet so…no news is good news, right? If that doesn’t work out then I will just keep my eyes open for more opportunities. Since I’m already in the system I have a great advantage.


Cheers and Happy New Year! Hard to believe I already have a semester under my belt with two more to go before I begin nursing school. WOW. Seriously, WOW. School as been an incredible experience so far. I finished this semester with a 3.8 GPA, something which I have NEVER seen in all my school days (well, maybe in elementary school, lol!).

I am working on ideas for posts in the upcoming months. I will be very busy with a large, pregnant belly, 3 year old, school and full time work. If there is something specific you would like to see, please let me now. I really enjoy writing articles on both personal and professional experiences, as well as anything medically related to pregnancy, childbirth, and breastfeeding. Speaking of, I also welcome all birth and breastfeeding stories. Lastly, I had a great response to my  most recent post on Pregnancy Loss. If you have experienced a loss, I would be happy to share your story. As I said in the post, loss is not talked about enough. I want to shed light on it and give the mamas with angel babies a place to celebrate their pregnancy and baby. Again, send me an email or leave me a comment.

On a personal note, this baby is doing great! 20 weeks tomorrow and growing well. We are not finding out the sex. We did discover a complete placenta previa at 17 weeks and as of yesterday, it has completely resolved itself! We are elated. I shared a case study on placenta previa last fall and will be writing more on the subject now that I have personal experience, though brief.

Take care!!

school daze

I have been accepted and will be registering for classes at a community college in town. This is the best route for me before I get into nursing school. It gives me an opportunity to raise my GPA and wait until my hubs is out of school himself. See, we just love school so much! 🙂

So far I am set to take Medical Terminology and Anatomy & Physiology I. The Med Terms is actually for work and will be beneficial to my future regardless if it’s a required pre-rec. Once I get more organized, I will post on the side bar all the classes I will be taking to get where I want to be. All through nursing school and beyond. It will take years, but I figure if I’m a CNM by the time I’m 35 I’m doing pretty good.

Remember if you want to share a birth story I would love to post it! Also, if you have any reading recs let me know. I will add them to the list. Have a great week!

Why I Won’t Have a Home Birth

Before I became pregnant, I was totally naive about birthing options. I only had a handful of friends who had children and all of them birthed in a hospital with an epidural for pain management. I never imagined anything different. I’m not sure when or exactly what prompted me to educate myself further as my pregnancy progressed but there was a little bug inside of me that said I should.

I do remember seeing 19th Kids and Counting and, mouth gaping, watched as Anna delivered her little girl at home with a doula. No problems, good pain control, healthy mom and baby. Seemed like the perfect scenario for a home birth. By the time I’d seen that we were already registered for Bradley Method classes. My mom is a huge advocate for natural birth and is very proud of how she was able to birth both her children naturally without interventions or pain medications. It was her encouragement alone that had me seeking out information on natural childbirth, hence why we chose the Bradley Method. But after seeing Anna’s awesome delivery, I was certain I could do a natural birth in a hospital, no problem.

Fast forward five months. After 12 weeks of childbirth classes and 12 hours of hard back labor, I was nearly passing out from the pain. I couldn’t relax and had been stuck at 4cm for a few hours. I learned later that my son was OP (occiput posterior) which was causing the back labor. I got the epidural and quickly opened from 4cm-8cm in less than a half hour. I was relaxed and it was working!

Later, when Logan was born he popped a hole in his lung. This is the only reason I need to know that we will have our next baby(ies) in a hospital. We’re lucky to live so close to not one, but two great hospitals, both less than 30 minutes away. Regardless, the time it would have taken to treat Logan would have been delayed had we been at home. This birth accident is reason enough for me to know that it’s right for us to birth in a hospital setting. I’d even consider a birth center (closest one is over an hour away). But birthing at home is too risky for me.

Maybe that’s fear, and the kind of fear that women need to let go of in order to have safer, less intervention type births. But I just can’t. And I won’t. For me, I’m not scared that something like that will happen again. I just know that if it did, I would forever regret our decision to have a home birth and I could not live with those emotions.

Other reasons why I won’t have a home birth:

  • Someone else cleans up the mess. I know the birth team (midwives/doulas, etc) at a home birth take care of this but what about smells and stains and…everything else? No thank you.
  • Regular monitoring. I am a need-to-know kind of girl and I don’t mind being woken up every 2 hours to make sure I’m not hemorrhaging and to get help with those first few nursing sessions.  Oh and some meds to help control the after birth pains. I’m all for that (does this make me a hypocrite? oh well if it does…).

I want to be clear about something. This post is in no way to offend anyone who is for home birthing. I AM FOR home birthing, it’s just not for ME. If you feel comfortable with the idea and have had a great home birth, that is wonderful!! There are personal reasons why I know, deep down in my heart, that it’s not right for us and if you talk to any midwife out there, she will NOT support a home birth if mama is way to anxious and worried about it. I’m jaded. It’s not fair, but we had no control over what happened. Had we birthed at home, Logan would have been whisked away via ambulance and it would have been even harder to be away from him all while I was a hot mess.

An OB was interviewed on the blog Birth Mama. She had a successful home birth and her answers are very moving. I encourage anyone, regardless of what your birthing preference is, to read it. Not all OBs are like those depicted in The Business of Being Born. She gives very honest answers and great insight to the matter.

Now, what say you, birthing fanatics?

Happy New Year!

I am amazed by how empowering this blog has been for me. I hope to blog more often as plans begin to fall into place as I further my education.

Our family has been through a lot in the last 6 months and we’ve had to put my doula training on hold for now. As soon as we have the funds, I will take the workshop and continue on my journey. I look at becoming a doula just one of many ways I can gain confidence, experience and education.

A few things I’m looking forward to this year:

  • Doula certification
  • Lactation certification
  • Starting pre-rec classes in the fall
  • Any hands on experience I can get!
  • Finding a doula mentor

Keep following along! I also have some great ideas for the blog. More to come on that.